Conflicting Feelings

Okay, i'm not sure how i got to this place but since the biker came into my life, I've been totally confused that i don't know what i want anymore. He's currently on this long distance ride to Burundi with other bikers to raise funds for some orphans. Since he's been gone, I'm not sure my life has meaning until the time he calls which is usually at the end of his day.

It was during one of these low moments that Q called yesterday begging to see me. I could tell from his voice that he was extremely horny. Well, considering that i've been off the circuit for a while, i decided to test my will power. I got to his home at about 6.00pm and he had made us a very tasty meal. He then put on a romantic movie and cuddled up next to me. When he started caressing me i could'nt hold it much longer. Before i knew it, we were kissing and lost all track of the movie. One thing led to another but while he was ravishing me, my phone rang. (I've got the loudest ringtone that can even wake the dead). Anyway i ignored the phone but while basking in the aftermath of our sin, i decided to reach for the phone to see who was calling me. Well, as bad luck goes, it was the biker who had opted to send me a text message instead about how much he missed me and how he couldn't wait to see me. Most people in my position would have felt ashamed but for me, i felt excitement instead. Its the excitement of doing the forbidden that i find so irresistable. Call me crazy but its what gets my juices running.

Anyways, the biker confessed just before he left that he's extremely jealous. He therefore called me up with several questions about what i'd been up to. Being the ninja that i am, i came up with a satisfying answer but today, i've been plagued with calls from Q who hasn't stopped expressing his fulfilment with my performance last night.

I'll wait to hear from the Biker but in the meantime, Q is waiting to see me. Cheers