Can't quit fighting!

I'm not sure what has brought this on but me and the Biker are experiencing some rough patch in our relationship. We are always going off at each other ad the accusations that I am selfish and he's inconsiderate are just becoming a constant in our interactions.

I'm now easily ticked off that we have postponed any kind of lovemaking simply because it wouldn't feel right. I'd so looked forward to my siblings giving us some space but as soon as they left, we fell into this quarelling rythm that has brought on a new reality that is my character!

Many friends and people i know usually say they've never seen me angry and they can't help asking me what my secret to a positive attitude is. Now, I'm not sure I can be the one to speak for such positive souls and I can only blame it on the Biker and the ideal world that his initial attentiveness promised me. I can't say he's changed much but i'm constantly finding fault with him and his actions. In the meantime, Q is still at his best. I enjoy his company even more and I'm tempted to let him be the one that deflowers me after this prolonged sexual limbo.

Tonight is the night that will help me determine this. I have a choice to either hurry home to the Biker or to spend an evening of comic relief with Q at the Comedy night. I'll keep you posted on what i finally decide.

Ebola dampens my holiday cheer

Its that time of the year when everyone is feeling festive. My siblings are back from school and we were so looking forward to the holidays when the Ebola virus dampened our mood. I can't help feeling scared that the deadly virus could attack me. As such, i'm taking the necessary precautions not to contract it.

As one of my preventive measures, I've cut out all association with the likes of K and all other casual friends. I plan to limit my interactions to the Biker, Q and maybe the Arab prince. He has earned his position on this last by virtue of being a new entrant. At the moment, we are still communicating electronically but he should know that keeping in touch is not one of my strong points. I honestly prefer being touched instead.

Anyways, my siblings left my crib this morning for a visit to my granny. I am now as free as a bird to engage in activiites for the elderly before i embark on my mini holiday gateaway plans. Till next time, i remain yours in truth,

Big mama